I'LL BE OVER YOU

Am I really a fool? Do I always be the one to kiss the pain? Now, I can explain the odd feeling I had this crisp morning. Instead of appreciation, upon finding out the pleasant surprise I delightedly handed out to you, it only gained an unexpected mockery .. Though I'm aware that everything and every move I made was already mundane to you, this still triggered too much disappointment in me, I was really annoyed.

Times were spent the entire day with crazy thoughts and questions running in my distressed mind. The trouble with you is your inconsistency and incomprehensibility … and our differences which presumably would never be patched up anymore…

Does true love really exist? I guess, this is just a one-way affair of the heart… apparently, you just love the idea of loving and you’re not really in love with me…everything is now clear ..The trust and respect are not really present from the very start….Do we deserve each other? I’m hoping we do, but I’m afraid we don’t…It’s so unfortunate of me, that I still hang on to this fanatical feeling..

And finally, do I have to give up now? I know that this is the most difficult part of it..This has been like a glass that ‘s already broken and putting back the pieces might only hurt me….but I have to be brave and strong to face it all……

“I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose someone you never really had.”

As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you. --Toto

YOU'RE THE ONE I LOVE

YOU'RE THE ONE I LOVE

Every night, every day,
you're the one I always dream of.
Every line of your face is sketched so plain inside my heart.
You've grown so deep inside of me.
You're everything I feel and see,
and you're the one, you're the one I love.

All my life, all my love,
I can feel when you're beside me.
All that's right, all that's wrong
Suddenly becomes so clear.
But you have got somebody else
It's hard for me to tell myself
And you're the one,
you're the one I love.

Only you could move me enough to believe
In love one more time.
All I need to know for tomorrow
Is that you're mine,
mine for a lifetime.
If our friends all around
find it hard to understand us,
you and I understand
the other one so very well.

And that's what I've been looking for,
so I keep coming back for more,
'cause you're the one,
you're the one I love.
You're the one,
you're the one I love.

We Learn From Our Mistakes

If we are to face the everyday struggles of our life with a feeling that we are like to succumb,when we think of our past mistakes that we didn't intend to do, we are most likely getting sick, tired, exhausted...I've been experiencing it everyday in my job, a very unwanted situation, but, I've got no choice..well, who like pressures to come into our lives anyway? It's not healthy anymore...I want to quit, but I can't..not now..

If only I could turn back the hands of time, I'll never put my shoes in this ordeal that brought me hundred torments. If only I was given the chance to choose people whom I should go along with in this situation I have in my present job, I could have done it.

Anyway, I know that I'm the only one who can make remedy on it...I can always find my way out of it..I should consider rewarding online job now..prioritize it.. this difficulty is only in the mind.. don't take life seriously..I don't want to be the author of my own life misery...I should act earlier before it's too late...